Visa Problems Gone

I have finally sent in my visa application. I'm so mad at myself for taking so long! ......ugh! At first, I wanted to take as long as possible because they basically gave me a months notice, and looking at that now, it's like, whyyyyy did that bother me? Was I afraid that I was going to be jetting off in a week?! Probably, but at least it would be DONE! and I wouldn't be so frustrated with still being home, with nothing to do, with just time to spend. I'm stuck in the stage of beating myself up for procrastinating, because now the process is that much longer, it's that much more waiting. Shame on me. Same, shame, shame. And I talked to one gal who's serving in Australia now, asking her questions and stuff, and she told me that, basically, everyone who's serving there now is leaving in May, which means I'll get to know them, get comfortable, and then they'll leave, leaving me as the only one, or "experienced" one when all new people come in. I can't help but be nervous about that. When and why and how did I get stuck procrastinating everything?? I mean, in school I would do it, but not to the extent I do it now. I guess when you're not given a deadline you just leave it to the side. This isn't good. I need to learn to depend on myself, to do things myself and to be able to be disciplined about things like this, for crying out loud! If not for any reason than for people to stop asking me "When are you leaving?" or "Aren't you gone yet?" or "What do you do with your days?" If this blog does nothing but answer those questions, I'll be happy...let's get to the part of how you're doing and just bypass my current lame existence, because then you'll feel good about the good you're doing and I won't have to voice and feel bad about what I'm not doing. We'll see how long it takes my helper to file the papers and then we'll see how long it'll be before I leave. I still have to make reservations, and prices are always unstable which means we'll probably get screwed. Thinking I should take up boxing.