What Does it Mean to Live in the Moment?

For the past month I've really tried to practice the art of living in the moment. It's something that I've never been great at, but knowing that my time here is fleeting, soaking in every moment possible is vital.

I feel on some level, I've accomplished doing so- I've fully enjoyed all the events I've been doing, indulged myself in resturants and outings, and not worrying about finances or lack of sleep. I've had a legit meat pie, true state-of-the-art fish and chips, gone to an amusment park by the Sydney Harbour, gone to the city and enjoyed Pancakes on the Rocks, hung out with all different groups of friends and just living my last couple weeks to the fullest....Now the emotion is hitting me. Hitting me hard.

My undodgeable feelings of sadness have been put on the backburner for now, because up until today I wasn't going to let them take over and inhibit me from doing all the activies I want to do before I go home. The last two weeks were really good- full on happy and enjoying “living in the moment”...but at the same time, was I pushing my feelings aside? Ignoring it? In denial?

So what does it mean to live in the moment? Does it mean living like you don't know what is going to happen, which means it all hits you at once? Does it mean you constantly think about what is eminately going to happen and in turn being unhappy all the time? I know it's finding the balance, and right now, I'm off balance for sure. Am I to constantly remind myself that I have less than 3 weeks to go?! Because honestly now I feel like that's what I need to do to stay in “reality,” but then it makes me sad....

Ughhhhhh! God help!