When I found out I didn't really know what to do. I didn't jump up and down, I didn't cry. I simply read the email, thought "ok", went to my room and lied down and tried to figure out what I was experiencing. I had a bunch of different feelings- excited, sad, nervous, anxious, scared...etc, because now I have to go! I think part of me felt that I wasn't going to be getting my visa, that it just wouldn't work out and I wouldn't have to worry about leaving anymore. This is going to be the first time I will truly be away from home- no parents, no one I know- truly starting fresh and becoming more independent. I'm excited to learn more about myself, about the Baha'i Faith, and another country! I know it's going to be challenging, and frankly I'm pretty scared about that. But I hope I will be able to see the good in the bad, to see the final product, and to know that I will grow from this, and to not be defeated by the first blow. It's been great to finally deliver good news to my friends, to let them hear the news I've been waiting to hear for a long time also- you've all been on the journey with me, we all waited anxiously together. Having no news was like having bad news, but I couldn't do anything about it. Now I have good news and I can do something about it!
The next step is to book a flight, get health insurance, figure out my finances, call the phone company, finish hemming my clothes, find a stuffed animal to take (I have a feeling I will have a time where I need to squeeze something and cry), and about 100 other things to do. Oh God, here I go....
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